“No, of course not,” Steve replies immediately, shaking his head a little. “That’s not what I meant. I just meant that if she actually did want a family but she was just scared or something because—“
He pauses and looks at Hopper, unsure of how much to say, because he doesn’t want to talk about Maeve’s upbringing. It isn’t his place and while he figures it isn’t a secret, he doesn’t need to go relaying details.
“If she was scared, I could try to make her not scared and see if that helped, is all I meant. But that isn’t it,” Steve says in a thick, trembling voice. He feels so frustrated because it seems like no matter what he says, he’s the asshole. He’s not going to be mad at Maeve. He’s not going to try and change her mind. He’s just fucking sad.
“We both had shitty, lonely childhoods and I just thought we’d have this little family of our own someday, and we’d be better,” he admits, feeling deeply embarrassed as tears spill from his eyes and he has to wipe them away, not looking at Hopper at all. “I could see it in my head, how great we’d be, and now it’s all been wiped away. I feel like I should be allowed to be fucking sad.”
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He pauses and looks at Hopper, unsure of how much to say, because he doesn’t want to talk about Maeve’s upbringing. It isn’t his place and while he figures it isn’t a secret, he doesn’t need to go relaying details.
“If she was scared, I could try to make her not scared and see if that helped, is all I meant. But that isn’t it,” Steve says in a thick, trembling voice. He feels so frustrated because it seems like no matter what he says, he’s the asshole. He’s not going to be mad at Maeve. He’s not going to try and change her mind. He’s just fucking sad.
“We both had shitty, lonely childhoods and I just thought we’d have this little family of our own someday, and we’d be better,” he admits, feeling deeply embarrassed as tears spill from his eyes and he has to wipe them away, not looking at Hopper at all. “I could see it in my head, how great we’d be, and now it’s all been wiped away. I feel like I should be allowed to be fucking sad.”